Similarly, my life is entering a new season. 2013 has been a challenging year. It started on New Years day with the death of someone I knew. It also meant the end of a relationship. It included an unanticipated move from a home I had enjoyed for five years.
I know myself well enough to know this. I can sometimes grow comfortable in areas I’m not meant to stay. In other words, I resist change. I have been known to stay in wrong situations solely because it is familiar.
During the past six months or so, I faced involuntary changes. It stressed me out. It was unpleasant. However, I still felt a sense of anticipation. I had a nagging feeling that I needed these changes. That good was on the other side of all of this.
I had no idea.
Over five years ago, I moved from a city, from a church, from friends I loved very much. But I believed that God was going to stretch me in ways that were necessary for my growth as a man. The first six months after my move, I was laid off from three different jobs. It also unexpectedly turned out to be the last six months of my mom’s life. Very good things also happened, but I never felt like where I moved to was “home”.
During the past six months, I’ve sensed that God was preparing an unveiling for me. I’ve felt like He had some serious change in my life. And despite my nature to resist change, this time I felt an eager anticipation. Meanwhile, I was still facing some serious challenges. But all with a sense of expectation.
In the coming days, weeks and months, I will share with you more detail on what God has been doing behind the scenes. I will share with you where I believe God is leading me. I will share with you the miracle of a love I never thought I’d experience. I will share with you the miracle of self discovery. In faith, I will share my walk with you. Most of this story has yet to be experienced, so sharing it in stages is simply the only way.
Let me just leave you with this. When God breathes expectation and anticipation into your heart, embrace it. It doesn’t mean things will be easy, but it does mean He is working on something glorious. He loves me and blesses me beyond my merit. I am undeserving. But I would be a fool to reject His leading and blessing in my life. Very significant and humongous things are in store. And yet, there is no fear. God gives us a glimpse. It is mind blowing, with a beauty that defies description. And yet, it’s only a glimpse. The full picture will be revealed only after we take our first steps.
Faith and action working in concert to see God’s will come to fruition.
A new season is upon me. I’m ready for change.